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Friday, February 27th, 2004
12:50 pm	Correction...my last post was 2001...no matter...I wont be back! Bye (4 Comments |Comment on this)
12:48 pm	It's been a LONG time... since I was here. Can you believe someone actually emailed me the other day about my last post? Ummm....it was like back in 1999! So much has changed since I last posted here. I've moved three times and am about to move again to the mountains of western Virginia! Everyone in the family is doing well. I wont be posting here anymore so please don't send me messages! Marsha (Comment on this)
Friday, February 16th, 2001
1:20 am	Good news... I had a daycare interview tonight and I start watching a 15 month old boy in two weeks. This is good! I have another interview next week and am waiting to hear about another child I have already met. Things are going great so far. I saw my children tonight. They are doing well. The little rugrat didnt wanna go to sleep tonight....grrrr. 12:30am he finally nodded off. Finally have some quiet time to myself! Not much else to say. Cya! Current Mood: happy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 11th, 2001
8:10 pm	Things are looking up.... So much to say...I don't know where to start. I met a very sweet person recently and have been enjoying our conversations alot. I have decided to start my daycare business again. I have an interview scheduled tues. nite with a mom about a 3 month old. Tonight I got a call from a mom whose babysitter just quit on her. She starts a new job tomorrow and is in a panic. I met with her and she will be here tomorrow morning with her 4 month old son. It's a temporary thing until she finds someone closer to her office, but hey, it's money in my pocket! I am feeling good about my decision to stay home and do daycare again. I am still planning on joining the local rescue squad. I think once I have my daycare business established, I will start running again. My children came to visit me this weekend. I miss them when they are gone. My daughter found a new place to sleep this weekend...The closet floor! She is an odd one!! I have another room with two beds in it. No one wants to sleep there. Usually they ALL end up in my bed! Below are words sent to me by a friend. I downloaded the song and I love it. I had heard it before, long ago...but tonight I listened to the music and the words and it seemed to have a new meaning to me. It's how I am starting to feel. My friend has been a great encouragement to me. He is so special. I am glad he has come into my life. Back On My Feet Again... Gonna break these chains that around me Gonna learn to fly again May be hard, may be hard But I'll do it When I 'm back on my feet again Soon these tears will all be dryin' Soon these eyes will see the sun Might take time, might take time But I'll see it When I'm back on my feet again When I'm back on my feet again I'll walk proud down this street again And they'll all look at me again And they'll see that I'm strong Gonna hear the children laughing Gonna hear the voices sing Won't be long, won't be long Till I hear them When I'm back on my feet again Gonna feel the sweet light of heaven Shining down its light on me One sweet day, one sweet day I will feel it When I'm back on my feet again When I'm back on my feet again I'll walk proud down this street again And they'll all look at me again And they'll see that I'm strong And I'm not gonna crawl again I will learn to stand tall again No I'm not gonna fall again Cause I'll learn to be strong Soon these tears will all be dryin' Soon these eyes will see the sun Won't be long, won't be long Till I see it When I'm back on my feet again When I'm back on my feet again I'll be back on my feet again Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Michael Bolton (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 6th, 2001
2:41 am	What to say.... Hmmm...I am sitting here listening to music. I have 51 songs downloaded to Napster and I am downloading another one. I had a very nice conversation on the phone with someone tonight. :-) My kids will be here this weekend. I am looking forward to that. Got a call about a job today. Trouble is, it's 90 miles from home. I should have checked to see just how far it was before I applied! DUH!! It's with the company my youngest brother works for. Not much else happening here. I need to get to bed and SLEEP!! Cya! Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Because I Can...LeeAnn Rimes (Comment on this)
Monday, February 5th, 2001
7:49 am	Deep in thought this morning... God brings people into your life for a reason. I have learned many things from those I have met both online and off. I thank God every day for the friends I have. I just hope that I have given back something in return. Sometimes God lets me do some really stupid things. He lets me go down roads I shouldn't, just to teach me a valuable lesson. It hurts, but in the end, He is waiting there to pick me up, dust me off and set me on the right path again. He will never give up on me. He never leaves my side. Sometimes I am too busy looking forward for an answer, trying to do it all on my own. I forget that He's walking right beside me, waiting for me to turn to Him for the answer. It's good to know I am not alone. Have a nice day! :-) One of my favorite cd's to listen to is by Clay Crosse. His music touches me. It speaks to my soul. It reminds me of who I am. I Surrender All... I have wrestled in the darkness Of this lonely pilgrim land Raising strong and mighty fortresses That I alone command But these castles I've constructed By the strength of my own hand Are just temporary kingdoms On foundations made of sand In the middle of the battle I believe I've finally found I'll never know the thrill of victory Til I'm willing to lay down All my weapons of defense And earthly strategies of war So I'm laying down my arms And running helplessly to yours I surrender all My silent hopes and dreams Though the price to follow Costs me everything I surrender all My human soul's desires If sacrifice requires That all my kingdoms fall I surrender all If the source of my ambition Is the treasure I obtain If I measure my successes On a scale of earthly gain If the focus of my vision Is the status I obtain My accomplishments are worthless And my efforts are in vain So I lay aside these trophies To pursue a higher crown And if you choose somehow to use the life I willing lay down I surrender all the triumph For it's only by your grace I relinquish all the glory I surrender all the praise I surrender all My silent hopes and dreams Though the price to follow Costs me everything I surrender all My human soul's desires If sacrifice requires That all my kingdoms fall I surrender all Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Clay Crosse (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 3rd, 2001
3:03 am	Not a happy chatter... I fell asleep with my son again. Missed my two favorite chat buddies :( Now I am sittng here with no one to talk to. It sucks. I did get 5 hours of sleep though. I really needed it. Napster and I aren't getting along this morning. I am trying to download a song but it won't let me! Grrr... I worked with my brother today. I hate the drive, but at least I got some pocket change. It's FREEZING in here. I had to go hunt down a pair of socks a few minutes ago. It's getting harder and harder to find them lately. I think my daughter is snitching them one pair at a time when she comes to visit!! Not much happening this weekend. It's just me and little bits. We have to go grocery shopping Sunday. That's always fun. Ever go shopping with a 3 year old? He wants nothing but junk. Then when we get home, he thinks he must sample every snack we just bought! I have to do laundry and clean this weekend also. I am not looking forward to that, but it has to be done. Well, I need to go check on my download. Then I am going to search for someone to chat with! If I am not successful, then it's off to bed (where I should be anyway). Night! Somewhere... A promise is forever Supposed to last forever So why do promises just simply fly away? Though love has passed me by and Left me alone and crying I still believe that love will come along one day If I have to search forever To find where love begins I'm not exactly sure where I should start But I still believe with all my soul and heart When it tells me... Somewhere, just beyond the reach of my arms You're waiting there Somehow, I'll find my way into your heart I will search everwhere You know they say that you can't ever go back again, But I say where there's a love, there's a way Till I find you somewhere...somehow...someday Don't bother talkin' to me The words just go right through me You see, I've been there and I've heard it all before If miracles are only A matter of believing I can't help wondering who those miracles are for Yeah, they say there's always someone For everyone, it seems But surely that means everyone but me Still there's part of me that's dying to believe Believe that... Somewhere, just beyong the reach of my arms You're waiting there Somehow, I'll find my way into your heart I will search everwhere You know they say that you can't ever go back again But I say where there's a love, there's a way And I'll find you somewhere...somehow...someday Someday - God only knows how long it's gonna take Somehow - I still believe that love will find a way Somewhere - Where you and I will chance to meet one day We're living for that moment Real love is worth the wait Current Mood: tired Current Music: Bob Carlisle/Kathy Mattea (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 31st, 2001
4:35 am	It was a good day... Finally! It's about time! Little bits and I did a lot of running around today. Got a lot accomplished. Report cards come out today. I think I know a 13 yr old girl who is gonna be dodging my phone calls today. She is to interested in boys and is not paying enough attention to her school work. Once again I stayed up all frickin night. *Sigh* Just not enough quiet time hours in the regular day for me I guess. I can't bring myself to go to bed. I am enjoying it too much! Well, guess I will go try and sleep. Cya! Another one of my favorites: Lord I'm really glad you're here I hope you feel the same When you see all my fears and how I fail I fall sometimes It's hard to walk in shifting sand I miss the rock and find I've nowhere left to stand I start to cry Lord Please help me Raise my hand so you can pick me up Hold me close Hold me tighter I have found a place where I can hide It's safe inside Your arms of love Like a child whose held throughout a storm You keep me warm In your arms of love Storms will come and storms will go Wonder just how many storms it takes Until I finally know You're here always Even when my skies are far from grey I can stay Teach me to stay there In the place I found where I can hide It's safe inside Your arms of love Like a child whose held throughout a storm You keep me warm In your arms of love Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Arms of Love...Amy Grant (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 23rd, 2001
7:55 am	Love it...Hate it... I fell asleep again while putting my son to bed. It's good in a way cause I really need the sleep. If I stay up, I wind up staying online all night and I am tired the next day. But I miss talking to my friends when I fall asleep, and that irritates me. Can't win. Oh well. I woke up at 4am with a backache and was going to get up but I fell back to sleep while thinking about it. lol My back can only take about 6 hours laying down. Needless to say, with 9 hours of sleep last night, my back is KILLING me this morning. Ugghhhh! My son turned 10 yesterday...time flies when they are young. I remember bringing him home from the hospital when he was born. He was 10lbs 6ozs and although I brought three different size outfits to the hospital with me, he was too big for all of them! He had these fat little cheeks. It was so cute. I have a video tape of the other two kids visiting me in the hospital. Amanda was three at the time. She was sitting on the hospital bed and the baby was on her lap. She had this high pitched little munchkin voice. She was rubbing his head then she took her fingers and opened his mouth, looking to see if he had teeth. lol It was so funny. Well, I think I am going to go watch tv before the rugrat wakes up and claims it for himself. He loves his cartoons. Cya "But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him." Hebrews 11:6 Current Mood: awake (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 20th, 2001
4:31 am	Sleeeeeeepy!!! I am going to sleep like a brick! I hear my pillow calling my name! Little bits is asleep on the couch so i have to lug his lard butt up the stairs...grrrr. At least he will sleep in...he didnt fall asleep til around 1am! Woo Hoo! Night :) Current Mood: tired Current Music: Lullabye...Billy Joel (Comment on this)
Friday, January 19th, 2001
4:40 am	Feeling a bit more normal today.... It's about time. Hopefully it will last. Not much going on here. I worked with my brother yesterday and am going back again today. Thank you to those who were there for me at the beginning of this week. I was very down and even though I might not have shown it at the time, I do appreciate your concern. God is still providing what we need on a daily basis. (I've been hoping for a full blown miracle but it ain't happenin!) I still tend to worry though which throws me into my down moods, this week worse than others. I have a sneaking suspicion that He's trying to teach me to be patient and not worry, but let me tell you, IT'S HARD!! Even when I am at my worst and think NOTHING can fix the mess I am in, He's still there and continues to "knock me upside the head" with his provisions. Ya think I'd get a clue! Guess it's just human nature to worry...I'll get it right...one day. *sigh* Well, I am off to the shower. Then I have to wake up the grump. He HATES to wake up early! Uggghhh.... Cya. Current Mood: cold Current Music: The Prodigal....Amy Grant (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 17th, 2001
4:56 am	I love this song.... Lately I've been winning battles left and right But even winners can get wounded in the fight People say that I'm amazing Strong beyond my years But they dont see inside of me I'm hiding all the fears They dont know that I go running home when i fall down And they dont know who picks me up when no one is around I drop my sword and cry for just a while Cause deep inside this armor the warrior is a child Unafraid because His armor is the best But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest People say that I'm amazing Never face retreat But they dont see the enemy that lay me at His feet And they dont know that I go running home when I fall down And they dont know who picks me up when no one is around I drop my sword and cry for just a while Cause deep inside this armor The warrior is a child I drop my sword and look up for a smile Cause deep inside this armor The warrior is a child Current Mood: drained Current Music: Twila Paris (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 16th, 2001
4:51 am	Feeling totally defeated... Why do I even bother. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: Somewhere....Bob Carlisle/Kathy Mattea (Comment on this)
Monday, January 15th, 2001
5:04 am	Needed.....Directions to my bedroom... What can I say? I like staying up late. Especially when Topher Cam is on! :) I am gonna find a job this week if it kills me. So, cross your fingers for me!! Nighty Night. (Tomato and celery on a hot dog? BARF!!) He knows, He loves, He cares, Nothing His truth can dim; He gives His very best to those Who leave the choice to Him. Current Mood: restless Current Music: Open Your Eyes....Keith Green (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 14th, 2001
3:32 am	Doo bee doo bee dooooooo..... I am WIDE awake! Geesh...not another "I can't sleep" night! Grrr... My toes are cold, my lips are dry and I am hungry! Guess I need to go raid the cereal cabinet. Hope the kids didn't eat all of the Super Sugar Crisp! My kids are here this weekend. The little one loves when they visit. He doesn't have anyone to fight with when they're gone. *eye roll* lol Well, not much else to say tonight, which is odd for me! Until next time...cya! It isn't the things you do, It's the thing you've left undone. Which gives you a bit of heartache, At the setting of the sun. The tender word forgotten, The letter you did not write. The flower you might have sent, Are your haunting ghosts tonight. The stone you might have lifted, Out of a brother's way. The bit of heartsome counsel, You were hurried too much to say. The loving touch of the hand, The gentle and winsome tone. That you had no time or thought for, With troubles enough of your own. The little act of kindness, So easily out of mind. Those chances to be angels, Which every mortal finds. They come in night and silence, Each chill, reproachful wraith. When hope is faint and flagging, And a blight has dropped on faith. For life is all too short, And sorrow is all to great. To suffer our slow compassion, That tarries until too late. And it's not the things you do, It's the thing you leave undone, Which gives you the bit of heartache, At the setting of the sun. Margaret E. Sangster Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Lover of My Soul....Amy Grant (Comment on this)
Friday, January 12th, 2001
8:28 am	Grrrrr..... I am really beginning to hate bedtime. I can't sleep. No matter how tired I am...it just doesn't happen. This time little bits was no help. He woke up in the middle of the night and decided he wasn't going back to sleep. So, I'm laying in the bed for over an hour watching him toss and turn. He couldn't sleep either. So, as he's laying there, he starts to see things (shadows) that "look like monsters". I had to get up three times and move the vaccum and some other things because they were freaking him out. Finally, around 8am I start to drift off and the phone rings! Ugghhh...I give up. Guess who is still upstairs sleeping? That darn rug rat!! Grrrr... Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: It's too damn early for music! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 10th, 2001
7:58 am	Uhhh....Did I Say Sleep? Ok, so I never really slept. I did try though! I was getting ready to go to bed when my sister-in-law came online. She started telling me about the car accident she and my brother were in on Friday night. She was pinned and they had to cut her out of the car. Seems my brother lost control on ice, spun around a few times, went airborne and hit a pole. He is ok, she was numb on her right side for a few days. Their seatbelts saved their lives. So, after I finished talking to her, I tried to sleep. Didn't happen. So, here I am...wide awake. Probably good though. I have my days and nights mixed up. This way, I will be exhausted tonight and hopefully be able to sleep at a decent time. Well, bits is up so I have to run. Time to be mom again. Only 14 more years to go! Woo Hoo! Later. Current Mood: awake Current Music: Somewhere in the World....Wayne Watson (Comment on this)
4:10 am	Gonna sleep like a baby... Once again I am going to bed with a smile on my face. :) I am going Thursday to apply for membership to the local rescue squad. I am very excited. I miss running a lot. Finally I will get to meet and talk to adults from the area! Woo hoo! Well, gotta go. Downloading software then need to get to bed. Bfn! *Still addicted to topher cam!* Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Search Deep Inside...Annie Herring (Comment on this)
Monday, January 8th, 2001
3:47 am	Going to bed with a smile on my face... I just got finished talking to my favorite person. He always leaves me with a smile on my face. Thanks Topher :) You brighten my days more than you know. Night. Current Mood: happy Current Music: Thank You....Dido (Comment on this)
Friday, January 5th, 2001
5:29 am	Oops...I did it again! Once again I stayed up all night long. Geesh, you'd think I'd learn by now. Oh well, I was enjoying my quiet time too much!! It all started when I was talking to a friend tonight about music. I pulled out my old collection of cd's, wiped the dust off, and started to listen to them. Before I knew it, it was 5am! grrr... A lot of cool things have been happening to me this past week and a half. A lot of answer to prayer. I have been hoping for this big miracle. I finally realized that He was answering me bit by bit. One need at a time. It's just awesome. :) Just when I thought it would never get any better...it did. I saw my old beagle, Jake, today. He was so excited to see me and little bits. I didn't realize how much I missed him til he was standing in front of me wagging that tail. He has a good home...for that I can be thankful. Well, I made it through another day. I am still standing. That in itself is a miracle. I am gonna cross my fingers, say another prayer and hope that next week is even better! :) bfn Current Mood: calm Current Music: My Place Is With You...Clay Crosse (Comment on this)